Samantha Klassen

allow the situation, accept it for what it is, because the more that we resist it, the more it wants to take control. If you don't like something. The more you push it away, It's going to attract more and harder at you

Samantha found herself floored with chronic pain after two major losses. diagnosis was vague but something was clear to her. She will not do pain killers. she found a way to befriend her pain and accept it and to her suprise it vanished completely. in this healing testimonial you can read how did she exactly cure herself from within, fascinating lady and story.

It all started at : 

Daily symptoms were pressure on my chest, loud wheezing & rattling in the lungs, frequent coughing (often so hard to the point of sweating), and exacerbated allergy symptoms such as itchy skin, running nose, and post nasal drip.  The capacity of my lungs deteriorated with time. they gave me 2 years to live. i believed them and was depressed.   All gone.

Main symptoms were: 

I had sternum pain  where it connects to your ribs. They said it was Costochondritis ie  inflammation of the ribs. And then I got diagnosed  a nerve issue or something. There is a nerve that runs in that location as well, which was always inflamed can't describe how it felt because it was such a violent pain. It was a ten out of ten. All the time. I never really had downtime. 

I couldn't move anymore

It was in that spring. So 2019, the springtime that I went bedridden, I couldn't move anymore, couldn't shower, couldn't clean myself, couldn't eat, couldn't make myself food. I have a husband. So he basically had to do everything for me. I was barely able to go to the bathroom, and then I would have to go back to bed and put my heat pad on. I watched TV all day, all night. It was ridiculous. I wasn't able to work. So I went on disability. My life was horrible, horrible. I was in a really toxic job at the time as well. Luckily for me, I got to go on disability. But prior to that, I was in this horrendous job for four years or three years, four years. So everything I think was catching up. The psychological shit I went through as a child, the trauma, the losses, the shitty jobs. Everything just came up. And for some reason it shows to be in the area. It was my ribs and sternum.

I tried these modalities but they did not cure me: 

basically I tried everything. I tried acupuncture, I tried physio, I tried light yoga stretching. I tried the chronic pain center. I went to hospitals, I've gotten every testing done. I basically did everything except medication. I just couldn't do it. 

Dark night of the soul: 

 I was just so fucked up. I was lying in bed watching TV afternoon sometime. And man, the pain was so bad, it was so bad. Like I was clenching my teeth. I could have taken a knife and cut myself just to get rid of the pain in my ribs. And I just cried and cried and cried and cried. That was my life. I cried.. I definitely did go through a dark night of the soul. it was huge. It lasted for months, actually, even longer. It was a long time. But the peak of that dark night of the soul was wild. I was actually going to end my life. I just couldn't deal with being in this much pain and having zero hope too. doctors are idiots and can't help you at all. I didn't know what the hell was going on and why it was happening and I lost my will to live.  I'm not ashamed at all. So I was actually going to go and do that.

Change in the plot: 

I went to where I was going to hang myself at this tree.  I was sitting there kind of like breathing in my last moments while this song came on in my car and it's called There Are Angels Above You, Angels above you. Look it up. It's so good. 

basically it's about their Angels above me looking down on me. And I just started crying so hard. I really felt this was a direct message from my mother to hang on. And so I just cried and went back home and did not obviously kill myself. 
I told my husband everything and went to bed with my heat pack. It did give me a bit more will and drive to try and figure this out. It was at that point when I did start reading Dr. Sarno's book and I think I read it in like 2 hours. And then there's another book  called The Great Pain Deception 

After I read all those books, I started to implement what I'm learning and what I already know and basically not letting the pain win.

The doom of the past versus the glory of my present life: 

I talking to my pain and treating it as it was like a little crying child, like, I love you. It's going to be okay. I'm with you. I'm here for you. You're allowed to be in my body. It's completely fine. I accept you. You're allowed to be here. And I noticed with that the pain would go down not all the way, but it decreased. Then I noticed, I figured, I'm like, I wonder if it has something to do with grief and loss and all the trauma. So when my pain got to a ten, I would go into my room and cry and Journal and love myself really hard. I would let my pain out. I would just cry, cry, cry, cry. And I noticed with that that it decreased it by, like, seven points. 

I was doing meditation. Basically, I lied on my back. I envisioned when I would breathe in, I would breathe in through my hand. It's kind of hard to explain. I would breathe in this golden healing healing light. It would go through my arm, and I would see it go over to my sternum, go over to my ribs. And I watched this golden light intertwine in my muscles, in my cartilage, in my nerves. And it was healing it. And then I would outbreath black. So I would envision the pain, which was black. It would go through my ribs, up over to my shoulder, and I would see it come out of my hand. I shit. You not doing this daily. Once a day dramatically saved my life. I was actually able to shower, make sandwiches, do, even cleaning for, like, ten minutes. So that was basically the onset of the healing. 

I'm fully healed now. I have been for almost a year, I guess since January of last year, I had bouts of it, but this summer now gone. I can kayak, paddleboard, bike ride, rollerblade, ll of it. You name it. I can do it. I have no pain anymore, but I'm still doing the work. I'm still meditating, and I'm still growing spiritually, so that helps too. I've also gotten rid of toxic people in my life. I don't want that stuff really quick for you. Just to note if you are dealing with pain or anything like that, there's a vital thing that I think we should all learn. And it is to accept the pain itself
 

My relationship to pain: 

I feel like the chronic pain came on to stop me from feeling about the baby and about my mother. It makes a lot of sense. I could not grasp that I lost my mom and my baby. And I think the pain came on at the perfect time to distract me. It protects me right more or less. I think that's what its intentions were. And it worked for sure. 

i am talking to my pain

The biggest thing that I took away from everything is learning how to not be afraid of it and really believing that this is TMS. So I would basically yell instead of my head sometimes, like, you will not beat me. I am bigger than you. Pain. You cannot control my life.

not afraid of pain any more

I don't get afraid anymore. I'm not afraid. I sit there with it and breathe it in. Breathe it out. I allow it to be there. Nothing faces me anymore. It was the biggest growth I've ever had in my life. And I know everybody can outbeat living with pain, like, for real. I did.

My best advice to fellow sufferers of chronic conditions: 

acceptance is the key to healing.  allow the situation, accept it for what it is, because the more that we resist it, the more it wants to take control. If you don't like something. The more you push it away, push it away. It's going to attract more and harder at you, right? So definitely do that and love it. And nobody likes when I say that. Because why would you love your pain? But it's different. It changes your chemistry and your brain when you're just like, okay, well, I love you, and I know you have to be here. Probably because I have a lot of pain psychologically somewhere in my body, there's trapped emotion. So you're welcome to be here. I love you.

allow the situation, accept it for what it is, because the more that we resist it, the more it wants to take control. If you don't like something. The more you push it away, It's going to attract more and harder at you

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